What I'm Loving Wednesday.
I am loving this song ---->
Whom Shall I Fear (God of Angel Armies) by Chris Tomlin
The words "I know who goes before me, I know who stands behind.." have been playing over and over in my head. I did a little Google search to see if there was a story behind the song. Of course, there is. You can read the whole article here. Basically Chris Tomlin co-wrote this song with Ed Cash (wonder if he's related to Johnny Cash?). This is a small portion of what Chris Tomlin had to say:
Ed told me his wife wakes him up in the middle of the night struggling with anxiety and fear and attacks when she's wrestling in the night and can't sleep. Those thoughts and fears come in the night and grip her. She asked him to pray for her, and not long after that he started writing this song as a praise to God during the night.
There's something powerful about praying to God and praising Him during the night. When things are coming against you, prayer is the answer. Ed said he didn't even know where the words came from, but he started praying the lyrics to the song: "I know Who goes before me / I know Who stands behind / The God of angel armies / Is always on my side / The One who reigns forever / He is a Friend of mine." He played me that chorus, and I knew this song was exactly what I wanted to sing.
How many of us can relate to that fear that tries to grip us in the middle of the night? You know that fear that says: You're not going to make it. You won't have enough money this month to pay your bills. You may have a serious health problem. You'll never amount to anything. You will always struggle. You do a horrible job raising your child (children) and doing housework. You'll never get that promotion. Etc. and Etc.
Maybe your fear tells you something different. I don't know. But for me something about laying in the quit, dark bedroom reliving and reflecting on the moments from the day sometimes brings up worries, fears, and struggles. I've been there on more than one occasion. I've had those sleepless nights. Deep down we know that our God will supply or needs. We know that we are never forsaken, but in that moment fear tries to overtake our thoughts.
The song was based off of 2 Kings 6:15-18. The Bible says there were people out to attack God's people. When they looked all around it seemed like they were surrounded by the enemy, but God opened their eyes (spiritually speaking) so they could see the army of Angels that were there to fight with them. They were not alone. I like what Chris Tomlin says next in the article.
For myself, for the Church, we need to be praying that same prayer for God to open our eyes. Most of the time our eyes are focused on what's in front of us. If we could see the spiritual realm, our enemy wouldn't cause us fear. Those who are with us are far more than those who are against us.
Wise words. We have to gain control over our fear and realize that we have nothing to be afraid of. "The Lord is my light and my salvation, of whom shall I fear." Psalm 27:1 The Bible promises us that God has a plan for us.
I am speaking to myself probably more than anyone in writing this. I have to remind myself of these things consistently. It is a battle of the mind. However we don't have to let fear/negative thoughts control us. When those thoughts enter our mind, we have to remind our self what the Word of God says about us. We don't have to dwell on those thoughts; we don't have to live in fear. We can take a stand against fear. If that means memorizing words to song and singing it over and over in your mind, then do it. If it means writing your favorite scripture verse on a post- it note and putting it on the dash board of your car, then do it! If it means writing a blog post to remind yourself that God is with us, then do it!